Frustration!

I haven't updated in a while.

I haven't had anything to report.

To date, I have gotten donations of about $30, not enough to even get headshots printed up.

A couple of days ago, I had a guy email me just to say, "Sounds like just another scam to me." What is the scam, dude? You give me money, I buy new clothes? I have pictures of me from movies, I have an article from a magazine I was in (about a movie I am in), and you can look me up on google or imdb.com. It's blatantly obvious, unless you are an idiot, that I am a real person with a very real dream, struggling just like everyone else in this crazy world.

I had such hopes for this site. I am very surprised that so many people stop by & look at this site, & almost no one donates. Not even one friggin dollar. And then I think back to that lady who got complete strangers to donate like $20,000 for her credit card debt....and no one will donate one friggin' dollar to help someone achieve a dream...someone who plans to do good things in the world.

It's really frustrating.

"Georgia Rule" came & left. I don't think I remained in the film. I think that's lame--while understanding the business--because I was in the magazine as a character in the film, & then was cut out of the film....and it cut all of, what, 10 seconds off the movie? Lame. PLUS, the director's adorable granddaughter was in the scene with me. Now, I admit, I don't know for sure that I ended up on the cutting room floor, but a friend went to see it, was looking for me, had seen pics, & didn't see me. I was also, not gonna lie, extremely disappointed that my name wasn't put in the credits. I saw people who had smaller roles than me (if that's possible) in the credits. There was like, "woman on crutches." But no "Potato Queen." Very disappointing. Especially considering that my lines were ALSO cut out of "PD1," & yet my name remained in the credits. I guess if I was cut out completely it makes more sense.

Don't mind me, I'm just bitter. I'm grateful for the one day role I had. I had fun that day, & it was so cool being a beauty queen, since I am not exactly a beauty queen! Every girl likes to wear a tiara. I'm most grateful for the money I made that day. I was painfull struggling at the time, so it was a great relief.

I just wish this career would move forward. I need new headshots...which I actually had taken, but can't spare the money to print them up. I can't afford classes. I can't afford jack poop.

I just remain stunned & saddened that people will help a woman pay off her credit card debt from buying frivilous things, & no one will donate to someone struggling to achieve a dream & bring positive things to the world. It doesn't make sense in my head.

But then, I've always been different. *shrug*